Even though I am a healthier person not talking to the boy I am really worried. He said yesterday he wanted to talk and he didn’t get on Facebook. Today he wasn’t on either. The last time we talked I was cold and distant. He was suppose to be traveling back to his base. Something is really wrong. :( I just want him to be okay.
just another disappointment
You said we would be able to talk today… surprise surprise it didnt happen. :( this is why i cant keep going… im sure that you were doing something but at the same time i know that you can quickly leave me a message before you go to sleep. you didnt. this is what hurts.
um so
I miss my bestfriendtwin!
We need to have another laughing crying bestfriendtwin date again! Chris needs to go away again and work needs to stop being an assface so i can have you back :) that is all
I will never fully understand why this happened. I won’t get the reasons behind you showing up out of no where. There is some good in this bad but I don’t understand why there is so much bad. I’m going to miss you. It’s going to hurt at first knowing ive given up but that hurt seems more bearable then how I’ve felt frequently in the past. I’m not the person you need in your life right now. You have some growing up to do and life changes to make. You aren’t the person I need either. I have growing up to do and life changes to make. I’m dragging this on hoping for a slow fade but in my heart I know it’s over. I’m going to miss you. Maybe one day soon you will see what caused this. Maybe one day we will meet again and take a shot at life. So maybe this isn’t the end but a pause. That sound better. We are on pause.
Sometimes I wonder if you are really the best thing for me…
i hurt so much sometimes. you are cold and mean sometimes. you say things that make me question what I am doing. I need to know that you wont leave me. Why wont you promise me every tomorrow?
I cry. I get angry. There are days that Im all smiles and happy. It just seems like there is more bad then good right now….
Extremely eventful weekend
That makes me miss my boy more then anything. Hurry up I really need to see you again
Happy!
Yesterday started off perfect in the middle of the night talking to the most handsome man on the planet! Then I got to talk to him through out the day
